I remember the last time I talked to her.
I remember the last words she said. “I love you more.”
We ate dinner, then watched a movie and went to bed. Never thought things would change for me after I closed my eyes. My bedroom was above the front door. I woke up because I thought I heard knocking. I figured it was part of my dream so I went right back to sleep. Just a few minutes later, I saw a light on in the hallway. I walked downstairs to find my brother sitting on the edge of his bed with his head down. I asked what was wrong, but he insisted that I talk to mom and dad. I walk into our dining room to see my parents, a police officer and another man standing around the table.
Finally the left and I asked what was going on?
My mom held me so tight and in a quiet voice, she said, “they found your sister dead in her apartment.”
I then asked, “How? What happen?”
She then said, “She overdosed on pills.”
I knew my sister was battling depression, but I never thought she would take her own life. I had just talked to her eight hours before and I thought she was just fine.
As I have grown up, I have learned the important of seeing the signs of depression and suicide. So many people say that those who commit suicide are just selfish especially for leaving their loved ones behind. I have also learned that mental illness is not selfishness. “Suicide is a desperate act by someone who is in intense pain and wants their pain to stop. That is a HUMAN response to extreme pain, not a selfish one. And over 90 percent of the people who die by suicide have a mental illness at the time of their death, so they are not thinking clearly (Suicide.org).”
We should be more aware aware of signs of depression. We should also give support to those who may be struggling whether they are family, friends, colleagues and more. We may never know that they are having a tough time in their life. It could be job issues, health issues and so much more. It is important to show your support and that you care.